God are you there? Who are you? Why do I feel this way? If you are there, I need your help understanding. Please help me understand what it is that I am feeling. Who am I, really? I long to feel you and to serve you. You inspire me to be a better person but at times I feel lost, alone and insecure. In you I seek the strength to move forward but often I find myself confused and afraid. Please help me! It wasn’t too long ago that I felt betrayed by you. I resented you and I felt anger towards you. But in reality it was me, who I hated, not you. I hated myself for not being a man. I was so wrong, I made so many mistakes. I love you for loving me. After all I did, you never gave up on me and I love you for that. Now it is time for us to have a real relationship. I open my heart to you and I ask for your mercy. I ask that you forgive me and I ask that you help me to get stronger, so that through me, we can make a difference in the world. AMEN!