God are you there?

God are you there? Who are you? Why do I feel this way? If you are there, I need your help understanding. Please help me understand what it is that I am feeling. Who am I, really? I long to feel you and to serve you. You inspire me to be a better person but at times I feel lost, alone and insecure. In you I seek the strength to move forward but often I find myself confused and afraid. Please help me! It wasn’t too long ago that I felt betrayed by you. I resented you and I felt anger towards you. But in reality it was me, who I hated, not you. I hated myself for not being a man. I was so wrong, I made so many mistakes. I love you for loving me. After all I did, you never gave up on me and I love you for that. Now it is time for us to have a real relationship. I open my heart to you and I ask for your mercy. I ask that you forgive me and I ask that you help me to get stronger, so that through me, we can make a difference in the world. Amen.

Jeremiah 29:13

“You will seek me and you will find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

Dear God I thank You!

Dear God,
I thank you for everything you have given us. I also ask you for forgiveness for all my sins and I ask you to forgive me for my actions against those who I have offended. I also ask you to forgive those who have sinned against me.
Right now God my heart is full of fear and despair because I do not know what the next few months have in store for us. I put my faith in you God, that everything will turn out just fine but I realize I can’t do this on my own. I pray to you God our Lord for guidance and protection from harm. I ask of you Lord to help me overcome my fear and despair. Most importantly, God I ask you to teach me or show me how to Love instead of hate. Help me get rid of this feeling of anger inside my heart. Lord, I long to be part of your plan and I know that in order to do that I have to change and Lord I ask of you to help me transform into that man. Amen.